The Start of a Revised Normal?

I live in the province of Québec, and as everyone knows, we've had the most Covid-19 cases, so this comes with the most rigorous lockdown measures. Our premier has tried to be both empathetic and realistic towards a fractured health care system and a population that loves to be together.

Lockdowns have been an extended test of endurance for someone who once lived in downtown Vancouver's busiest retail corner. This person would, perhaps with a friend stepped out at 8:00 p.m. on a Sunday night (sorry, I know it's irreverent) and pick up on sales – yes, they did those kinds of markdowns late on the 7th day.

Yesterday, Québec opened retail, and because hair salons are scrambling to return calls (another green light service) but not back to me, I went to the mall. Yes, I'm a local supporter of the independents, but some of my favorite ones are not open yet.

The big outing was a flatliner. Was it the mask I was wearing?  I should have invited a friend – but not sure I'm supposed to do this. Maybe I was homesick to return to something other than the present, but if I think getting back to normal is a trip to the mall; I’m headed in the wrong direction. I might have felt better going for my daily winter walk along the Parliamentary Trail—to imagine a revised normal. But the libraries have re-opened so today’s venture was a linger, yes linger as I long as I was home by the 8:00 curfew. So I sat in the sun and held some books. There are some normalities I can’t revise, but the library was brand new.

 

Place Bonding

Place Bonding Is More Than A Backdrop by Deborah A.M. Phillips

 

            “Tom Green invited the people of Ottawa to a sunset picnic at Major’s Hill Park on Saturday. Should we go?”

            “I’m all for not screwing up the iconic Chateau Laurier, but I don’t need a picnic to prove it. He doesn’t even live here anymore,” Glen replied.

            “Doesn’t matter,” I said.

            My husband did not have what the actor Tom Green and I had; an attachment to the Chateau Laurier.

            The battle to add a new wing to the historical chateau has been going on for several years. Friends of the Chateau oppose interference with the view from Major’s Hill Park–a scene that takes in not just the Chateau, but also Parliament Hill, the Rideau Canal, and the Ottawa River. In August 2020, the latest design was finally accepted by Heritage and the mayor’s office.

            For me, the plan for a seven-story, 147 -room addition contemporary style was never about the view or structure. It was about “place bonding.”

            Whenever I was in Ottawa, the Chateau Laurier was my destination to meet with friends, the ideal place to swim, get lost in the thrill of reading newspapers in a luxury setting or write at a desk of timeless quality. Last year, the reading room was stripped of the daily news, the desk removed, and the stage was transformed to look like the doctor’s waiting room. What were they thinking, removing those comfortable chairs and couches—even before the global pandemic made unwelcome the new norm?

            If the owners remove the historical photos lining the Chateau Laurier’s hallways, I will start a new campaign against the inside renos. I am especially attached to the tribute to Charles Melville, the first general manager, who tragically died in the Titanic sinking.

            Are the Friends of the Chateau over-reacting? Am I? What’s the attachment? The history of the hotel and our experience weaves meaning into our self-identity—this can happen with any physical building or landscape. If author Kathleen Norris wrestled out her spiritual memoir through Dakota’s geography, I unearthed part of mine in the refuge of historic buildings.

            And not just in Ottawa. When I transitioned into singleness after 30 years of marriage, I lived for a time in the 100-year-old, hotel-like Manhattan Co-op situated on Robson and Thurlow’s corner in downtown Vancouver. The Chateau Vancouver Fairmont, another railway hotel “castle in the city,” was two blocks away. Swimming at the Chateau Vancouver after work kept me sane. I shared my breakup with Inez, a stranger, recently widowed, ten years older and ready to listen. The friendship continued for more than four years until the new owner’s new policy kicked—and kicked us out. No more outsider swimmers; book a room, and you get the hotel pool.

            In another season of my life, I worked in Québec. Part of the Chateau Frontenac charm is the UNESCO historical setting in one of North America’s oldest cities. The Frontenac is as iconic as the Eiffel Tower for most visitors. I won’t elaborate on the inside renos in 2014 to ‘update’ the hotel for future generations. Unfortunately, the future guests will miss out on the allure to explore the past–it’s been wiped out unless you stay in a celebrity guest suite decorated to commemorate the setting for Hitchcock’s 1952 movie I Confess.

            Others may find deep connections to nature; my landscape has been different. I’ve never lived in the place of my birth. I moved thirty-six times. Although I don’t feel a sense of belonging to the Chateau Laurier, or any other Chateau(s), place bonding is more than a backdrop. It’s part of our story.

Notes from a Seafloor Trench

            One summer, I filled my days with university requirements— Oceanography and Earth Sciences, written up as science credits with easy math. There was no way I could memorize the rate of seafloor spreading, seafloor trenches, and measure the sedimentation spreading. The mind-boggling theories about faults, fracture zones, and tectonically active plates require the figures. My friend Patty, the hydrogeologist, agreed to coach me through the math. In return, I offered Italian affogatos.            

           At the same time, through a series of personal tectonic collisions, I sank into one of those seafloor trenches. I moved into a co-op on the corner of Robson and Thurlow, the busiest street in Vancouver. I knew nothing about co-op budgets or building maintenance, but I plunged into the committee work, along with the gardening on the rooftop. I tuned in nightly to listen to Suzie Orman, the portfolio chef, expound on the light and the dreary of formulas to save money. I adopted Max, a needy porky, who kept me company while I wrote the first draft of a novel. I stayed faithful to my church community. Or maybe it was the reverse. Grace, one of those invisible mysteries, appeared in a form called the Manhattan Co-op.

            Another summer arrives with the headline—Covid 19. The plunge into altered activities returns. Yesterday it was the attendance of an outdoor wedding at Jericho Beach in Vancouver by Zoom. I go to church on Facebook. Today instead of a regular visit to my doctor, he phoned me. France has lavender fields, but so does Québec, so no trips this year. Our landscapes have shifted much like the oceanic and continental plates, the coming together is now the spreading apart and there will be interaction at new boundaries where no distinct landforms arise – at least not yet. 

             

 

May Drops with a Shift to Baguettes

During the pandemic, we bake bread.

Foodies know this can be unpredictable–

the shaping, proofing, scoring,

steaming as we knead through exile.

Through the fermentation

we stare at the rise of

the curve across the planet.

May drops with a shift to baguettes.

Meanwhile the humpbacks

breech in the Van harbor

elsewhere the smog lifts

along with hopes, dreams

prayers bound to the loaf.

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Carry On and Cry Out

In our house, grocery shopping during the Pandemic means what comes home is not on the list. If it's Tuesday, does it matter if the husband wants roast pork? The days are blurred. Nothing else is ordinary. So, what if I'm big on eat memories? I long for dinner parties, foodie friends, and yakking about nothing around the table.

It is his night to cook (yes, we negotiate), so we eat a minuscule slab of pork with leftover apple sauce, mash potatoes, and asparagus. I talked incessantly during the meal. Tradition was huge growing up in my family. (Since when, did I care about routine and ritual?) Pork roast would not happen unless it was Sunday, I repeat. Why did this meal take me back to my father's experience in WW2 out in the Atlantic battling submarine attacks? I cry, again.

Staying home, grocery shopping, and online overload leave me in the storms of self and tempest of unrest as writer Madeleine L’Engle understands it. Each day brings up a longing for elsewhere. Zooming with everyone I know is making me homesick for everywhere. If this blog reads like a “lament” – it is. The lament has a common place in the Scriptures—go ahead and cry out: how long, because I can’t stand it any longer.